Pinch me. Me must be dreaming. #AMDG
Away— as in fight.
Away nalang kame ng away ng away ng away ng away at napapagod na ako. Sa away ha.. Not with him. I don’t know what to do. I want to be calm and toned.. But it takes a lot of self control to let him have the last witty, sarcastic, smart-ass word. He wants me to help him, but then again.. He’ll send me all these hurtful messages. Even when I have nothing to say, even when I don’t be sarcastic, smart-assy too.
There’s really no satisfying him at the moment. He’ll say he understands but he’ll guilt-trip me.. And it works! I feel guilty, I feel awful of what he’s going through! I want to help! I want us both to be happy, and proud of each other.
I thought that he’s finally decided to fix our relationship. I guess he is. He really is naman. But it’s not the same scenario as before..
Aaaah.. this is a big IDK. A humongous EWAN.
Napapagod ako sa away namin. I want to be happy with him.. I want to share my happiness I get from work with him. He has this ability to make me have second thoughts to share a good experience or good news to him.. or to feel happy or appreciative of the little or big blessings that come my way.
I WANT US TO BE OKAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY. Bakit ba di pwede, putangina namanaaaaanananannannnnnnnnn.
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Since I got to Manila, I’ve been eating, hmm, maybe 4x more than usual. That’s because my energy is always depleted with all the walking and commuting and panicking that I might be late or might not find a place to stay near work.
I’m not a rice-person for lunch or dinner, but even more so for breakfast. Very rare occasion for me to have rice for breakfast. But because of Manila, because of commuting for 5hrs or so a day.. Who wouldn’t go looking for energy in food? So for a few days now, I have about 6-8 cups of rice a day, I shit you not. Plus a looot of snacks in between. Just yesterday, after breakfast, I rushed to trike, FX, train, train. Somewhere along that time, I could already feel hungry so when I got down the last train, I dropped by McDonald’s to get two orders of McSaver’s pancake meal with coffee. Two orders. So four pancakes. Two coffee cups. I devoured it off quickly in the station.Had lunch an hour or so after that and had double servings of rice then. Merienda was more snacks. And had Mang Inasal for dinner with three cups. Damn.Needless to say I need to cut back. Health reasons? Well, my job needs me to maintain my figure too. And.. Aaah, just watch what you eat, Bea.
Crop muna for full effect haha. Kung kilala mo ako, di ako kinilig :))) I’ll be posting the full photo later, pa sensya nalang muna #TomDen @kristinedera907 @raqiterra @loverobinsienna
I barely survived my first week in Manila. Commuting for hours at a time, being in traffic, spending so much for transpo, and getting lost. I’m also resisting the urge to buy nice stuff for myself. Plus, I still need a place to stay that’s close to work. Why is Manila so big? -_-
Worse thing is, wala ako support from the people I love :(
Finally have time to post! Omg! And I’m blogging in “Menela” haha. Oooh, Manila. Finally here. Not that I ever aspired to be here. But I aspired to do big on radio, my love. And here I am now.. After 3 phone calls, 3 hectic mondays in four weeks— I am training in THE number one FM station (over all AB/CD sectors) in Metro Manila and number one all over the Philippines! With a little faith, trust, and pixie dust, I made it :’)
I think I can say more, but it’s hard in the iPad so hey.. I’m just so happy of my accomplishment. Sad to leave Zamboanga, and sad to have a tough time adjusting. But I have support— or, if I had a lot of support, I think I can manage. It’s a struggle now.. In due time, I hope to find the ease and seamless way for me to move around.
For now, hello again, Menela :D